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How about we bring this back?

Mungo

What has happened to us?
- Hokie

In Response to Request

I will Mungo, I promise I will.
Things just don't make sense right now.
But I'll be back soon.

- Hokie

PS. Sorry it took so long to respond

Request

I want Hokie to come back and join me in keeping this blog alive or it just won't be the same.
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- Mungo

The Sky Exploded and It's All Over My Shoes

Let go of my wrist and quit pulling me down.

When we landed on earth, our fingers were numb. Eyes bleeding, knees shaking. We held onto each other's hearts to keep us warm. Fall out of love with everything you know. Love is only special when its the last thing you recognize. 

Hold on. There's a call on my other lifeline.

I need for us to be better. Let's walk slowly on the pavement and watch us sink like quicksand. Grab onto the ledge. Fiery walls await us. When your fingers slip so will I. Hell is coming near and there's nothing we can do. Falling fast, never let me go. When we land and meet the Devil, I want it to be special. Say we come as a package so all our remaining days can be bearable. 

Don't let go. No...Let go.

This is some planet we have here. Earth is full of shit, isn't it? Let's go back. Where we're from, roads are useless. We're always going  somewhere but targets are unheard of. Stand on air and speak through the clouds. Hold onto a star and wear it like a ring. The one I gave you.

The one you no longer wear.

After falling forever, we finally landed in hell. We landed in the room where we met. I guess the you were the devil. I fell in love with the devil.  =X

This is to you.

This is to wanting to speak the most honest words you've ever spoken in your life, not knowing whether they should bring you closer to living or dying. This is for all of us who cry with dry eyes.

- Hokie

How does it feel?

I will always remember you as you are right now to me
So I’m sitting here thinking about
All the times you’d left me waiting in suspense.
The whispered words on the nights we’d sneak out.
This time we spent together, this love only getting better.

I thought that I could stay with you forever, spend forever in your arms

The familiar silhouette of you climbing though my window
The whispers of I love you, and I love you too.
Than we’d fall out of our clothes, content.
Confessing to dreams that would never come true
Here’s to a love that would never last.
For time was running out.
Time that could be counted on your fingers.
Inside I hope you know I’m dyin’.
Hugs that spoke more than words ever could.
Our goodbyes said amidst tears and breaking hearts.
You know the words so sing a long for me baby
In that moment, time didn’t exist.
And you let go
In that moment, I swear I felt my heart stop beating
4am phone calls and tears that will never ever be wiped away by tissues
Than you become nothing but a distant memory.
A relationship that only existed in a parallel word.

Another night, Another dream wasted on you
I can't forget you, I know you want me to want you believe me I want to.

- Hokie

Stranded

Someone please find me. Being stranded is no fun. I'm lost and the sky is closing in. I lack the patience to stand here and wait for you. In due time, all memories will be forgotten and all loves will be lost. I'll write your name in the sand over and over so when my dead body is found, they know who was last on my mind before the clouds took me. Let me rain on you. I bet you never felt so alive during a thunderstorm. The thunder booming is my voice cracking. My watchful eye blinks when the lighting strikes. The tears we cried together fall to the ground and I watch you put on up your umbrella. You hate the rain.

I need the rain. Being stranded is no fun. I need to fall asleep in your eyes. Glare at me again so I can pull those olive irises over me to keep me warm. Calm me down. Grab my heart and pull it out. Squeeze it dry and leave it on the ground to bathe in this oyster that is our world. Our world. Our world. Pick at my brain. Take what you please and leave in the junk. I want you to treasure my favorite thoughts and make them your own. Make me your puppet. I'll do what you please as long as the Hell still thrives underneath. You'll remain in the stars, the flowers, and trees. Only your life can survive.

My mind is pacing. Being stranded is no fun. All I think about is the things farthest away. I hope you read this one day and know I'm sincere. My fingers are trembling and my mouth is dry. The pen's ink is low and my last breath is near. I could never get my point across no matter how hard I try. Love is a sickness and this is why I must die. Time and time again, I'm captured in the moment. I'll remain in this one forever and I'll read this in heaven over and over until you join me. So we can sit on a cloud and kick our swinging feet together. Put my hand in yours and energy will thrive. Our hearts beat faster and everything freezes. Our minds slow up and everything freezes. We first lock eyes and everything freezes.Our lips first meet and everything freezes.

...

My last breath is amongst me finally. I'll cherish it and try to make it last forever hoping that you will find me before I let it go. Before I let it go. Before I let it go. Before I let it go, I saw your face one last time and I realized that before I die, I just wanted to say I love you. Now your not around and I'll write in the clouds, the same way I did in the sand.

- Mungo

Wow Janurary Companion Piece

And it begins like…

This party, the same party she got dragged to by her friends. The same party she vowed not to enjoy. Standing near the door closest to the window, her eyes roamed observing the usual reckless teenage antics, the hushed whispers, the sloppy kisses, the regrets. That’s what would come of this night. And Monday, they’d all retreat back to school, wrapped up in their secrets. It wasn’t until she met a pair of eyes looking back at her that her observations stopped. There was one thing that she saw vivid and clear and it was this boy, who seemed to be lost in her eyes. After a few awkward glances, she looked away. Wanting this boy to look anywhere but her, but willing for him to sulk over to her.
Deciding that enough time had passed and that it was safe her to look over, she didn’t find the boy in the spot he had been in before. A twinge of disappointment spread through her body, until she noticed the figure standing nearly a foot away from her. It was the boy, against her own will, the corners up her lip tugged, her body betrayed her, as much as she told herself over and over to stay still, to not make a move, to not get into anything like this again, she couldn’t. He had some power over her that she’d never seen before. Her eyes glistened. Blinking several types as to will the tears away, when she finally looked up, the warm feeling of happiness invaded. She saw stability in his eyes. She saw life. Saw love. What she wanted, what she needed. She had to get closer, become one with this person. Casting away any thoughts of doubt, of possibly regretting this. One step forward and she the ground running.
As soon as her hands met his chest, he pulled her forward, into a hug of some sort. But so much more than that, both taking in each other’s love. The love that they both needed so much to find. To hold on to , the love they needed to use. With her head on his chest, she listened to the beating of his heart, sounding stable, sounding real. It was in sync with her own, as if it was the match. She could see him. Although she didn’t know his favorite color, his pet peeves or if they’d ever really be together, she didn’t care. As long as his heart kept feeding hers love, she’d be here. Looking up she hoped to see the same awestruck hopelessly in love look she wore on her own face, and there it was, the same look if not amplified. And she kissed him.

Some time passes by…
She was in love, at least she thought it was. Even if he wasn’t, she needed him to pretend to be in love. She needed to pretend she was in love. After all didn’t they do all the things that people in love did?. She said I love you, and It came so easily, never strained, never hard to do, and he said I love you too. That meant that he loved her. And who was she to not believe that this was love, there were the cute glances shared when with people, the indulging in lovesick smiles and lullabies of the lips, they continued like this for weeks, months even. Than somewhere during that transition from the warm spring to the coldest winter, they died out. The kisses they shared turned into brief moments of handholding, the love you’s that were uttered were now casual goodbyes. Winter turned into spring, spring evolved into summer, and they fell like stars hanging by just strings. She found herself leaving, going away to summer camp, where she would find another who she would claim to be in love with, and just as easily as she gave her love, she would take it away, over and over and over again. She was desperately trying to fill the void that was left in her heart, constantly telling herself that if she loved and was loved back, the ache would go away.

And it ends like this.

And she brought this on them. On him. Unknowingly, she tore his heart to pieces. She’d contaminated him with the same ache that lived inside of her. She knew she would leave his questions unanswered, she knew he’d hurt. But nothing mattered to her except finding the match to her heart. Because if she was okay, everything would fall into place.

- Hokie

Wow January

Okay so...
At a party, they stood across the room from each other. She was waiting for him to come over and he was waiting for himself to make a move. He was always reluctant. He never wanted to finish a book because than he would be disappointed that it was over. He always loved the feeling of anticipation. It gave him something to look forward to. A reason to live. He moved. He thought it was time. He walked slowly across a crowded dance floor. He got bumped. He got pushed. He didn't care. He continued to walk at a turtle's pace. The flashing strobe lights had finally taken a toll on his eyes. Things were blurry. Everything was. He made it to the other side of the room and scanned his eyes around to see if he could find her. He knew he could, even with the blurred vision. She was the only thing in the room which he could see clearly. She saw him too. Her toothless smile from a moment ago was now displaying pearly whites. Her eyes started to glisten as if she was going to cry. She was that happy. She ran up to him and hugged him. Her head laying on his chest, she listened to his heart. His heartbeat was feeding her life. She now had a reason to be alive. He did too. Even with the anticipation over, he was joyful. They let each other go and looked into the windows of the others soul. They kissed.

Thank you...
He never knew she would end up feeling this way. He was in love with her at one point but now, when he least expected it (when he least wanted it!), she was crawling at his feet begging to drown in his heart. Begging to be loved. Oh how naive he was. His eyes fluttered, his mind stuttered, and his lips muttered "I love you too." They both exchanged cheap loverface glances and a few days later, they were on her bed, indulging in sloppy kisses and disgusting smiles. He enjoyed every second of it. Come a few months, the kisses evolved into hand holding into hugs then into high fives. ILY's now became "okay bye's" and what once was truth has now dissolved into lies. The girl said "I'm off to summer camp" but that meant "I never wanna see you again. All our kisses were sugarcoated with bullshit and high hopes and I hope you realized that me and you were just a big joke." The boy, that once was a man, cried everynight with her picture under his pillow. Pussy.

Frankly...
I knew I was unwanted, as usual. Nobody ever wants me anywhere. I wouldn't want me there either. I mean really, who wants to be present during one of my awkward social graces? She does. That's why love pumps in our blood. Our minds are synchronized. Our hearts, sewed into a cloth of unity. I love us. I love us more than I love you. Without me, your nothing. Why are you turning your back on me??? That came out wrong. FUCK. Told you I was awkward.

- Mungo